DAY 2: Weight Watchers

Today was my very first meeting at Weight Watchers. I had the fear of walking in there and getting laughed at for being so heavy and I started having second thoughts. As I drove there I started thinking about making a U-turn and going back to bed since the meeting was at 8am. I tried thinking of any excuse on why this was a bad idea. I started to go back to my old ways of thinking that I was able to make this work and that I am a foolish girl for trying to change. As I started feeling hopeful I did something new and I caught myself. I realize that I am my worst enemy. I am the only reason why I haven’t lost the weight. I analyzed my body every single day and I hope and pray for a new one yet I’m not willing to put in the work. I cannot continue to do this. I’m only 28 years old and I should have the world at my feet. No more self-doubt. So, I drag my feet in to the meeting and I did it.

It’s a good thing that I did because it opened my eyes to what I was really trying to avoid, which my actually weight. This whole time I thought I had only gain 30 pounds, but it seems like the damage is a lot worse. 45 pounds!! Never in my mind did I think I could gain so much weight and not notice it. Where was I when this was happening to my body???

As I began to feel sorry for myself I walked in to the room where the meeting was being held and I looked around. The people there were not looking at me and laughing. There was a very positive energy in the room. Everyone was happy to be there and no one was judging.

As the meeting went on I felt very comfortable being there. 

Everyone was like me. We made some kind of mistake and someone ended up in this situation. Everyone wants support, understanding, empathy and help it this seems to be the place to get it. It’s a nice feeling that you are not alone. I feel like I have a support system now that will get me where I want to be and it’s a great feeling.

As for my workout: I didn't work on my arms as I wanted to because it was another beautiful day in Chicago. I went for a walk by the lake and walked for an hour.  

Day 1

I've been thinking a lot of my diet and how I'm going to change the way that I eat and I decide to join Weight Watchers to help me out. I think it's a good I idea for myself because it takes me out of the house and I have someone to report to on a weekly basis. I need to mentally change the way I eat in order for my weight to really come off. So, tomorrow I go to my very first meeting.

In the meantime, I started my workout challenge today. I wanted to start slow and give my body the chance to remember what it's like to move around. Chicago's weather was amazing for winter, a high of 50 degrees so instead of driving to the gym I decided to explore my neighborhood.  It was a great day. 


It's was nice to walk the streets again and be around people. Everyone just having a great time with the friends, kids and dogs. I didn't really workout as I wanted to but I was outside which is something that I needed. I made sure that I was drinking water and I have stop eating bread for the time being. Things are looking good. 

Weekly Workout Plan Checklist

As I said before, Monday is the day I start my new workout plan and diet plan. I'm all about lists so I decided that the best way to keep track of the things to do is by checking the web to look for a weekly workout plan checklist. I haven't worked about in about 2 months so I know I'm going to be slow starting things out and I have to be okay with that.


The best thing for me is to have a list of things I have to do. I found a website called http://www.realsimple.com, which has a weekly workout plan checklist. Some of the things on here seem like it's things I can do. The day starts of with 30 minutes of walking but I think I should do more. Second day you work on your arms and than abs and so on. I can't wait to get started. 


One of the hardest things for me is to keep motivated. I hate going to the gym and looking at people who are older than me and in better shape. I wanted to go in there and run on the treadmill for an hour and do hundred sit-ups but the fact is that I'm out of shape. I've let myself go and I have to start from zero. 


Here is what I'm starting with on week #1 & #2:


Monday- 1 hour of cardio
Tuesday- work on arms
Wednesday- 1 hour of cardio 
Thursday-Abs and Obliques
Friday- 1 hour cardio 
Saturday- Free day
Sunday- Lower body workout

100 Days to Change Your Life

What happened to me??? I've been asking myself that almost every single day. When my husband met me more than six years ago, I was such a different person. I was fun, outgoing, sure of myself, I was 100 pounds and I had a plan for my life. I knew exactly what I was going to be. 
2011 was suppose to be a good year. I was working in a firm and was making great money. I liked my job and it seemed like I was going to grow with this company. Because of my career my husband and I decided to move closer to the business which meant moving an hour away from my friends and family. 
For most people moving away from family is not a big deal, but for me it was. I'm Mexican and our culture we are codependent of our families. We live together for as long as we can. My older sister didn't leave the house until she was 30 years old. Even now, her family lives 15 minutes away from my parents. Leaving the nest was what I always wanted to do, but I didn't realize how hard it would be. 
Recently married in 2011, my husband and I moved to the city of Chicago. The one place I've always wanted to be in. We are only an hour away from my family but it seems like we are states away.
2010 to early 2011 life was great. Things were coming together until one day I was let go from my company without warning. The blame was the economy and my life was turned up side down. As I went home I made up my mind that I was only going to give myself a week to mourned. I cried for about 8 days and than started my job search. I was sure that I would find myself a new job within a week. Six months later I found myself still unemployed and in a pretty bad shape. 
Somehow in the six months I had become someone that's not me. It's been hard to give myself a reason to wake up in the mornings and I've found myself eating for fun. I've lost interested in the world around me. Since our move to the city I haven't made a single friend and I don't really leave the house. It's sad to be in such a great city and not take advantage of it but I can't blame anyone but myself. 
As the new year started I really wanted to break free from the prison I created for myself.  Not as a new year's resolution but I need to start living again. I'm too young to watch life go by. So, I made a challenge for myself. I've given myself 100 days to change. I  challenged myself to lose weight, find a job and start living again.
My start date is Monday, January 30th 2012. I plan to start the weight loss and change the things that I don't like about myself. For one, I need to get out of the house and see the city I live in. 


I decided to keep a blog about this for 2 reasons:
 1. To keep track of my process 
 2. Have someone to answer to


So let's see what happens. 


:)